"I hate this feeling- like I'm here..

But I'm not.

Like I belong somewhere else,

 Anywhere but here,

And escape lies just past that snowy window. "

- Ellen Hopkins

"In the howling wind comes a stinging rain,

See it driving nails into the souls on the tree of pain.

From the firefly, a red orange glow-

See the face of fear running scared in the valley below."

- U2, Bullet the Blue Sky

"You woke the devil that I thought you'd left behind.

Ten thousand promises, ten thousand ways to lose.

And you held it all in, but you were careless to let it fall."

Tomorrow is an absolute dream come true. Tomorrow is a day I never thought would actually come. Tomorrow, I am going to share my story, my struggle and my journey to finding myself, with 100 girls. 

I hope to inspire every single one of them. I hope to help them ask for help when they need it, or help someone in their life who is struggling. I hope to show each and every one of those girls that they are not alone. Life gets easier and more beautiful every step of the way.

My goal is to change a life. My goal is for my story to spread hope and awareness. I want each young woman in that room to know that they are so much more than their weakness, and that they are beautiful on the inside and out. My goal is for each girl to walk out ready to live and not survive.

I am so thankful to be given such a wonderful opportunity. I am thankful for my support team and everyone who helped save me, especially you. You've helped me in ways you'll never realize. You've helped me to see myself in a light that I never knew actually existed. Thank you.

It is finally my turn to show the world that I  am myself again. And I have you to thank for the rest of eternity.

Goodbye Ana, Hello Ashley.

 "But you can't get away from yourself.

 You can't decide not to see yourself anymore.

You can't decide to turn off the noise in your head."

- Jay Asher, Thirteen Reasons Why

"Bring me home in a blinding dream,

Through the secrets that I have seen.

Wash the sorrow from off my skin

And show me how to be whole again."